Monday, March 18, 2024

Well, that is a revolting development….

 Well, that is a revolting development….

I went to the dr. and I got my xrays…  And that didn’t quite turn out like I thought.  Well, actually..  I didn’t know how it would turn out..  I wanted the xrays for answers..  and I sure got that.. Not quite what I thought it would be.   She wanted to have a MRI…but the insurance company has to approved it and they have to see xrays to see if it really is needed. Well, they must have seen enough.. as I got in for a MRI on Friday the 22nd..   Now I have never ever had a MRI..  Have heard other talk about having them.. but not about the procedure itself.. Only seen on dr. shows on tv.. kind of how it goes.  Now I have a better idea of it.. but still unsure.  As I got the call to come in and a little run down of what it is like and what to do before..  Like NO rings or any other jewelry.. Nothing on or in the body that is metal.  AND IT LAST AN HOUR to maybe an hour and half.!!

This is not good.. I am not good in close in places..  Don’t know how bad it can get, as I make a chose not to be in close in spaces.  Worse one was in a underground fort in Oregon, that they have tours thru.. I was doing pretty good until they said.. Here we have a door way, and if anyone has trouble with low ceilings.. this might be a good place to leave the tour.  I didn’t know I had issues so I went ahead with the King..  after all he is taller than me..  Well, I am hear to tell you after the next turn..  and too late to reverse… the ceil was lower.. I had a good foot.. should have not been bad.. it could even be a foot and half as the Ken is 6 feet and he seemed to be ok.. Found out later, he wished he had left too.

So this ought to be good … not…  asked if I could close my eyes.. she said yes, and they can put a washcloth over my eyes if that would help..  I said.. OH YES..  lol..

Anyway.. what they suspect and want better pictures of is.. degenerate bone/ arthritics..  I had them do my back, as well as my hip…, and they found something wrong at my 12 level in my spine? 

 

Tuesday, March 12, 2024

Not as young as I thought I was…

Not as young as I thought I was…

My body is revolting against me.. Now I know I can not lift as much as I use to be able..  (use to walk off with a 55# bale of hay with ease.. or a 70# bag of feed from the back porch) I understand those days are long gone..   I also know of late, I can’t lift much of anything over 20#.  I get it.. at 83 that is bound to happen. 

And with the way my legs have been acting for about 3 years now.. I can’t walk as much as I use to..  I could walk up to 2 miles without any problem and that was up  until about 3 years ago.  I still walk fast… .on a good day… just not as long.  And now I have to have the cart many times.. if I go thru Walmart.  If I go to Costco..  I need to take aspirin and rub my legs with EMU cream..  to make it thru the store..

Then in November.. my hip bone for some reason decided to give me problems..  It isn’t broke, but it sure is bent.. Enough that I decided to get it x ray’d.  BUT my insurance co.. has to have a referral… to get a referral you have to go see your doctor..  well, I called about January 4th.. and the earliest I could get is March 13th.. Yes.. tomorrow..  AND I am so ready…  Hopefully they figure out what is going on.. I know it is not broke.. but is it cracked?   Does it have a spur?  What the hell??   Hoping it isn’t surgery..   I have two counts against that..  one is I would not want to spend so much money on this 83 year old body.. to have it kick the bucket a week later…  leaving the King with a hospital bill..  The other is the platelets problem I found out I had 18 years ago.. And the blood dr. said that if I have to have surgery ever..  I need to have a dr. conference about the platelet problem, as bleeding out is a possibility.  Isn’t that a lovely thought.. hopefully medicine has come a way since the 18 years.

Then I woke up the other morning with my right muscle in my arm aching..  took me a while to figure out why that was.. I was helping out with some house work the other day at the granddaughter’s house.. and I was using a broom to bring stuff out from under the couch..  There was quite a bit and some of it was hard so I had to really pull to get it out..  So that explains that..  but still want to know what is going on with the hip, as it was Nov. when it happen.. and it isn’t getting any better, if anything it is worse as it happens every day..  in the beginning it was once a day or two.  

Hell to get old..  lol..

Monday, March 11, 2024

Well, this is the pits….

Well, this is the pits…. 

Last week was hell on wheels..   Mentally as well as physically..

Started off with Microsoft doing what they have been saying they were going to do..  Change from hotmail to outlook….  I have had hotmail for about 15 years or so.. It is my general email. I have two others..  one is my server which isn’t used much.. and the other is a gmail which is my personal one.. I have had that about 10 years.. As my grandson had made me do it.. lol..

Well on Thursday, I believe it all came to a screeching halt.  I was caught off guard as it has been telling me since the first of the year…COMING SOON.. changes to Microsoft ..stopping hotmail and going to just outlook.  Out look they have had for quite some time. But I am a creature of habit.. and it made no difference which one was used.. I got my hotmail.  But with out a date of when this would all happen..  I just plowed on..  I did make a copy of my sign on for gmail.. and put it in a folder.. And I knew my provider one..  But the King’s gmail.. I had not got around to copying.  And I went to the site and it would not let me sign in as they said it was the wrong password.  Well, I knew dang well. It was the correct one.. as I have a book with all my password in it.. so knew it was right..  Then I decide to go to Facebook.. it would not open.  Told me that my password was not correct. Once again.. I knew it was correct.. and I knew  it was really really hard for someone to figure it out.. As it has about 15 letters and numbers and symbols and etc.  I finally after 2 hours of trying to figure out how to get out of this mess..  I walked away.

When it starts to frustrate me.. I walk away..  and remember the words my son, the computer guy.. said to me many years ago..  MOM, IT IS JUST A TOY..  he told me that in the late 1990’s and at that time it was true..   and still kind of ..yet. but we now keep in contact with our friends and family… by computer.. be it Facebook. Or Messenger or emails..  So it is harder to take that advice.  But knowing if I kept it up.. my frustrating would get worse and there would be mistakes.. So walked I did..   He had called that afternoon, and I was complaining and he said.. what does this have to do with Facebook.   I said I thought because of one of the gmails is attached to the Facebook account..  He said it shouldn’t matter.

But long story short.. it didn’t and the reason why I could not get into my Facebook was FACEBOOK WAS DOWN.. NO ONE..across the nation could. 

So by the time I settled down the NEXT DAY..  I had no problem getting into my Facebook.. it came up with my account with no problems.. 

So then it was the emails to figure out. 

I found out that … the King’s gmail.. I had some where in my sanity.. gave my gmail for the kick back incase of trouble with his.. SO while it would not accept my password, it would go to  “forgot your password?” section..  And it would sent to MY gmail.. the way to redo the password.. which was kind of funny.. no so much humor.. but..  I put in the password I had in my book..  and guess what it said..   do not use old password…  now how the hell did it know it was my OLD password.. yet would not accept it?   So I figured out a new one.. yes, I put it in the book… and so far so good.   The HOTMAIL/OUTLOOK  email.. well, that got to be mostly junkmail anyway..  I took what ever was important off of that one in January and gave them my gmail.  So if I never see the Microsoft one again.. I don’t care. And all those junkmails are going to never never land.

I did try to get ahold of Microsoft and tell them how I felt… BUT when I hit send.. it told me it was a…. no reply address… which was not in the return address.  I tried the .com but that went off to some other stuff.  So gave up.  Good bye Microsoft.   The hard part was .. I had used outlook.com for the combo for all my emails.. but I can’t use it.. as gmail.has blocked them when I tried to sign them back up.. why it was erased in the transfer is beyond me.. after all the combo was listed as… you got it.. OUTLOOK.COM.

Any way.. I am like a bad steak.. I AM DONE. I AM OVER DONE.

By the way.. did I ever tell you .. I HATE COMPUTERS..  the necessary evil.??

Tuesday, March 05, 2024

Not giving up yet...

NOT GIVING UP YET.....

Wow.. it is not 18.. it is 19…

Yesterday, I was looking at my blog, and saw I started in 2005!! Not 06..  So tomorrow is the start of my 20th year..

So as I was thinking .. as I do at this time of the year.. do I keep going .... is there enough people who still want to read what this simple mind writes…  and then it dawn on me.. 19 years done..  wow..  (that is a lot of BS.. lol)  and can I do one more year and end it on a even year. A milestone so to speak.. after all 20 years..

Then I thought sure I can..  just write 3 or 4 paragraphs twice a week… as I have done for the past several years..   After all I am no quitter. AND it is election year..  and my soap box may be a little wobbly.. but it is still strong enough to hold the weight of my thoughts and words of wisdom…  lol… Don’t know about the wisdom. But this year..  it is going to be either … for me.. a hell of a ride… or I will get sooooo disgusted.. I just won’t care anymore.. 

The country needs Niki to stay in the race for a while longer.. so the mouth of the east, doesn’t get a free ride..  She needs to stay to show… 1. a woman can stand up to corruption.. 2. there is someone who really cares..  even if her way isn’t the one we really were hoping for.  My self I like the gal of Texas..  Gov. Richard.. now she was a character and some one to pay attention to.. but we don’t have those kind of women anymore. I don’t remember what party she belonged to, but I really don’t pay any attention to parties anyway.

Anyway.. as you can see.. I am sticking it out.. so unless God comes up with a better plan.. I am in for the ride..  HANG ON TO YOUR HATS… LADIES AND GENTS.. this could be a hell of a ride.

Monday, March 04, 2024

Still coming in with a roar …

Still coming in with a roar …

We have had some pretty mild weather for over a month..

More rain than snow.. temps about 10 degrees warmer.

But as we headed in to March.. it is living up to its saying, of coming in like an lion and out like a lamb…  but with this year.. who knows..  March just might be a lion all the way thru April. Anything is possible this year… that is for sure.

And to be honest with you.. I am hoping that Spring holds off for a couple more weeks as it is. When I walk around the yard with the GGboy.. all I see is a hell of a lot of work..

Still hoping for a couple more feet of snow…at least if not more for the mountain. We need it for ground water for July

Tuesday, February 27, 2024

Do you remember??? And I wonder.

Do you remember??? And I wonder.

As I was looking over the blog pages of 18 years ago,

I came across this one …   do you remember? It was in the news ..  everyone had an opinion.. most was let Terri go.

As I remember that story of 18 years ago…  I wonder how the story would have panned out today.. With the state congress’s making up the rules of lives.. women’s in particular..  Their take on how the human life should begin.. when will they decided to when it ends… as in this story.

It is just a matter of time..   After all they reverse .Roe and Wade..  and now working on starting with life at the sperm.

Will the health care owners get lawyers to prolong life to

line their pockets more?  Who knows..  20 years ago we didn’t think we would be here on Roe and Wade. 

this story seems sooooo far in the past and yet.. 

 

 MARCH 31, 2005

Somewhere Over the Rainbow......

Some where over the Rainbow, Way up high,
There's a land that I heard ofOnce in a lullaby
If happy little bluebirds flyBeyond the rainbow.
Why, oh why can't I?

That is the first line and last line of
Somewhere over the Rainbow...

Today, it finally ends. And hopefully the media
will take their 3 ring circus some where else and
let the people at the Hospice Center have peace
and quiet, they deserved.

For Terri, it has ended. To be trapped inside
a body for 15 years. Now she is free. Only one
can make decisions for her. And I trust him
more than any earth bound person. He will
have her whole and happy....
And the other people left behind? He will
take care of you all too... He will judge, not I.

So Terri, I hear, SOME WHERE OVER THE RAINBOW...

For those who don't remember
the words...here they are...
at this site.
Good bye Terri, God Bless
http://www.reelclassics.com/Musicals/Wizoz/rainbow-lyrics.htm

 

Monday, February 26, 2024

Heading out of February…..

Heading out of February…..

Just 3 more days. Adding in the leap year day of the 29th.  We head into March.  March the month that comes in as a lion and out like a lamb…  Which I don’t know if it will be like that..  as the weather has not been lion like for over a month… Even yesterday and today.. we have had winter storm warnings of MAYBE snow and winds 25 to 50 mph. and so far it has been a no show of just rain only.

And then there is the every year sessions of thought..  with March 5th coming up… what do I do..  I have wanted to make it a 20 year thing.. but I am only celebrating 18 years this year.  Do I have it in me to do 2 more years… Hell, will I still be around in 2 more years.  

Last week I started with thoughts of ending it as I was having trouble coming up with something to say..  after all there has been how many post.. well over 3,500…

Started out with every day.. 7 days a week.. then shorten it up to 5 and then now 2…  Some days I have a lot to say, especially when I find my soapbox…. Other days it is a struggle.. and it was a struggle day that I thought of writing… AND SO SHE WALKS AWAY..  had a few lines.. but didn’t write them down…  so with my brain.. there went that…   ha ha…  There has been sooooooooo many times, while away from the house, I came up with what I thought would be great subjects..   but living life, wiped them away.. so figure they must not have been that great..  

Any way.. that is what is on my mind this week..  do I keep on, or do I finally say enough??

Tuesday, February 20, 2024

President Day…

President Day… 

I am old enough to remember when there was no “PRESIDENT’S DAY off’”….  Oh, we celebrated PRESIDENT WASHINGTON birthday day.. and of course before that… PRESIDENT LINCOLN’S birthday..   22nd and the 12th.. in that order.. 

Now they not only throw in the whole bunch.. meaning all of the presidents… and not on their days but on the third Monday of the month.  EVERY YEAR.. 

And to be honest..  (as in those two President were… Honest Abe..  and I shall not tell a lie (Washington).. I don’t remember if they were a day off.. they were for the schools, but don’t know if they were actual Federal holidays..  Probably were.    And that is the sticker… with adding new Federal holidays.. they had to cut down on the ones that they had. Can’t give the workers too many days off.. I guess.

I saw lately where the Oriental people would like to make Lunar Year a holiday..  not sure if they want a federal one or not..   but I say .. go for it.. Why you ask?  Because the blacks have two days and a month of recognition.  They have January… MLK day..  ALL OF FEBRUARY for Black month.. AND then they added Juneteenth Day on June 19.. I think that was suppose to be when the slaves were set free.   And being from R.I. and we did have slaves in the 1800’s.. but we also had Irish slaves.. Oh, they call it indenture?   It was where the Irish were brought over for stable help, because they were and are great horsemen. And the woman came over for kitchen help.. They were told when they worked enough.. they would be free to go where they pleased..  only trouble is . they didn’t tell the Irish employee/slaves.. that it was almost impossible to be free as the owners kept adding in more and more money owed.. with money for rent.. money for clothing.. money for food and etc..   So I wonder..  when did they set the Irish free.. was it the same time as the blacks… or did that go on for a while.. I will have to google that .. But they at least got a day too.. not a day off for the nation.. but one of recognition.  ST. PATTY'S DAY. 

And finally the Native American's got  a month.. but again.. not a nation holiday as the blacks have gotten.. but one like the Black's..  a month  of recognition. 

Anyway.. I hope you had a fun day yesterday.. IF YOU GOT IT OFF,   as there is a lot of companies who do not recognize it.. and the workers work..  And of course in the nursing occupations for hospitals and nursing home.. that is not a holiday..  Altho.. when I was working the nursing home.. they gave MY birthday off instead of paying time and half for a holiday for all of us.. Giving us our own birthday off, was just straight time..  so a saving for the nursing home.  Oh, forgot.. they don’t called them nursing homes anymore.. they are HEALTH CARE CENTERS..    .

 

 

Monday, February 19, 2024

I.... Hate... PAPER WORK...


I hate paper work.. I hate trying find things…
 

As life slips by I try to keep thing in order.. Fat chance.

As my aunt told me years ago..  PAPER WORK, PAPER WORK.. I HATE PAPER WORK… she was telling me of her dining room table which had stacks of papers on it.. So were junk and a lot of it was stuff she had to do something with it. And even some that had to be filed..  Her daughters came to visit.. and they would go thru the piles with her..  both of them office workers, so an fairly easy chore for them..  And she was SOOOOOOOOOOOO GRATEFUL..   But then in a week or so.. there it was again, she said.  She said she tried to take care of things. as they came in.. but some how, the piles returned. 

Here I am almost 20 years later and I know EXACTLY what she means..  I am not a smart phone person.. I do have a file cabinet.. I do have a file thingie, that I put recipts in for each month as it comes, so at the end of the year I can do taxes. But there is other papers.. that I hang on to..  They are not so important that I need to file them in my file cabinet.  So I have folders on my desk.. and I try to go thru them from time to time to throw stuff away.. But it seems it is a matter of time before I have the folders filing up with “temporary save”

As they become to be known.  And THEN THERE IS THE COMPUTER.. I have so many things saved in my Doc. File.. then there is folders on the desk top.. that are temp holds..and some are just a file..  My head is aching..  WHY CAN’T I BE LIKE MY GRANDSON…  he files EVERYTHING on his phone.. (yes, a smart phone, but remember I flunked that a year ago)  he THROWS AWAY HIS RECIPTS!!  Oh, my God.. how can he verify he paid? Some is on his phone.. some he just doesn’t care..  because no one is going to want to see them anyway..  And I know deep down in my heart he is right..  but my heart and sould won’t let me throw any of them away.. None of them.   When January comes, I have every single recipt for the past year.. I have every bill with the check number, date and amount on it.. I have every single thing I think I MIGHT NEED.    And then there is the going thru each receipt… just in case I put one in that I need for taxes.. Which is crazy as there is less and less they let us use on our income tax..  

So I tell you  … I HATE PAPER WORK.. I HATE PAPERS…FOR ANYTHING.. You know it is sad, when you go thru your file cabinet draw that has the folder for all the booklets for anything you bought..  and find out there is at least 4 that you don’t even own the item anymore..

I feel like that commercial where the old guy tries to break the younger generation.. from becoming like their parents. Making them throw things away.. and etc..  those people is me….   I know sure as hell if I throw it away.. something will come up…  just like as soon as you throw away a tool or etc. you haven’t used for 5 years….  You will need it 3 days later.

And NO I do not do THE CLOUD..  I know it exist, but I have no clue how it works and etc..  AND I DON’T WANT TO KNOW!!!  It is just more information.. to have to take care of..

And I am not going to say anything about spending 4 hours trying to find out what I did with some ancestry paperwork.. as I don’t know where in this house it  is.. and I gave up my account.. and I don’t want to pay just to copy one list!.. That is a whole another area.

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, February 13, 2024

It is... WASTED DAYS AND WASTED NIGHT SEASON

It is WASTED DAYS AND WASTED NIGHT SEASON

 

This is the part of the year.. where we run in one spot.. day after day after day..  This year to add to that.. we have no snow.  Oh, we have a patch here and there, where we piled it up in the beginning of January.. when we got about 9 inches one day and 5 more the next and then another 5.. after that NOTHING..  But lots of rain.. and wind and GOOD BYE, SNOW.

So now it is like end of March.. no snow, mud everywhere. Load limits on the road..  The walk around the yard is frustration.. You see the dead leaves of Fall. The branches that need to be taken down..  the vines that need to be trim around on the bushes..  But with lots of rain and wind.. you just can’t get into the mood.   If you get any sunshine it is about 2 or 3 in the afternoon, when you are winding down for the day. 

Will we get more snow?  Who knows. Surely the weather man doesn’t, as he is just as frustrated as we are, the change signs.. only to have mother earth switch it around in the air.. and warmer comes..  The Mountains did get some snow.. they got 13 inches last week and they were THRILLED.. as it has been disappearing there too.. and then of course there are avalanches to worry about.

They got more snow today… about 3 inches.. we got rain.

Cabin Fever is going to be coming early this year..